Today’s reading in Thomas Merton’s journals contained this disarming comment:

What is ‘wrong’ in my life is not so much a matter of ‘sin’…, but a matter of unawareness, lostness, slackness, relaxation, dissipation of desire, lack of courage and decision, so that I let myself be carried along and dictated by an alien movement. The current of the ‘world,’ which I know is not mine. I am always being diverted into a way that is not my way and…not going where I am called to go.–Jonathan Montaldo, ed., A Year with Thomas Merton (Harper: 2004), May 5.

Not a  bad description of the real character of sin, in my opinion. It reads like a modern version of the apostle Paul’s confession in Romans 7.